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last night i made the best roast beef ever! cooked it just before going to bed and i've just brushed my teeth before taking it out from the oven. it was calling out to me when i sliced it up so i took the slice together with the fatty part, dipped it in the gravy in the tray, put it in my mouth and let it melt. such bliss to end the three days that i didn't touch my notes at all when my exams is a week away. it was worth it; i celebrated my 22nd with the closest people i know.

was already happy with the surprise dinner and cake on the night before my birthday. so the next day when they came over before heading out to the city, i was too busy packing up my stuff for netball right after hanging out with them. so they nicely placed the present beside the table in the living room. i love the guys for getting me my first set of speakers! totally wasn't expecting any presents at all.

and also they managed to make me skip netball so i had to carry around my heavy gym bag around the city. and it was probably the most unhealthy birthday ever! strawberry cheese cake for breakfast, german choc cake for lunch, waffles and hot chocolate for tea and sandwich for dinner.

i'm a happy camper :)

the start of lady gaga's bad romance gives me the chills. i'd like to see her in normal clothing for once and sing while playing the piano, because i think she can really sing.

13 days to my first exams. two days til i turn 22. shit.

stats project submitted! booyahhh! and i've been having major headaches due to the lack of sleep, but i was home alone last night so i went to the guys'. ended up staying there until 6am because wii is just awesome! we played for eight hours non-stop. and surprisingly my headache was gone right after i finished playing one song on rock band :P good start on my weekend eh? hahhahaha. now i need to start on my internship application.

question: do you cure a blocked ear if you don't feel like going to the doctor's?

i've been sick the whole time my sister was here; which i think was a really good thing. she cooked and nagged haha!

they say procrastination is murder. i agree. but time and again i'll never learn from it. i've been sitting in the computer lab after class for five hours for the past few days to write my statistical model report which is due friday. padan muka. exams in 20 days :(

i still cannot wrap my head around the fact that exams are less than a month away. funny thing is i put in more effort on reading and understanding subjects which are not being examined this semester. sab being here is actually a good thing-- she uses the laptop for the lame cafeworld on facebook so at least the laptop is not in front of my face; which can lead to unnecessary online shopping :P i actually completed more homework than any other week!

1200 words statistics report is due next week. then i have the online internship application to complete. the thing is i'm not even sure if i want to do an internship since it will most likely clash with my summer holidays. apparently its super tedious; all the essays, tests, phone interviews and assessment centers!.but i'll just apply for the sake of experience. if i do manage to get one, the pay will definitely be my motivation :P i kid.

no winter break plans this time. probably just drive around scotland, since everyone already have plans. i'll just spend my three weeks on reading or hang out with phin and the boys' rock band :)

curiosity kills the cat therefore ignorance is an effing bliss.

i think i'm easily paranoid and sensitive when i'm surfing the crimson wave. and i don't think its pms. my theory on this: since we're restricted to perform prayers and read the holy quran, we're a little bit further away from the Merciful. so devils use this opportunity to make us weak; whisper shitty things about everything, slowly killing one's optimism (in me, at least) and making us forget to seek refuge in Allah. humans have an eternal enmity with satan and know that satan is sparing no efforts all the time to misguide and mislead us. Islam teaches that the way out is to resort to the Almighty all the time and pray to Him for guidance and protection. but sometimes, we just forget. and i blame satan!

i'm not trying to preach and my knowledge on my own religion is still shallow. just my two cents. i guess my perception on some things changed after watching 'the arrival' and how some events like 9/11 and the new world order are somehow related to luciferism.

i cannot wait til my sister gets here on sunday. speaking less than 20 words a day at home is ... weird. feels like living in halls; only with huge space and colder.

during last year's nottingham games, i was at the netball court most of the time so i didn't realize there were so many malaysians. but this year, i volunteered to help out on promoting projek kalsom at the booth; which was in the same builiding as the food court-- half of the time i thought i was in malaysia! seriously! they're everywhere!!! and its crazy that i hear screams and shouts of joy when they see their friends. even the ladies that sold me nasi lemak sambal sotong (which was yummeh!) kept saying "nasi 50sen, sambal sotong seringgit, ayam goreng seringgit, timun and telur 50sen..so semua 3 ringgit" and i straight away said "serious 3 ringgit?! so 50p la kan?" and of course i was being sarcastic :P

it felt good to see familiar faces again :)

a recipe post! yea i'm posting this instead of doing stochastic. this caramel croissant pudding is one of the easiest and loveliest dessert i've ever made and everyone who have tasted it craved for it! and because the ingredients are super cheap here. i know double cream costs about 20 ringgit back in malaysia. i'll just share the pictures so you guys can get a rough idea on the process step-by-step. okay so i realized that i unintentionally gave away the instructions; just to make my point that its super easy!

i haven't been updating because i am plain lazy. also because all this maths and statistics and stochastic is slowly killing my ability to write. and i blame the crappy weather. also, i've been doing a lot of self-reflection. and another thing is life here is pretty mundane. i'll start updating regularly again. hopefully.

just to let you know that i'm still alive.

tomorrow's eid in edinburgh!

i think there's something wrong with the weather here. its all gloomy today with no glimpse of the sun at all. i dont feel like stepping foot outside; pajamas, socks and hoodie sweater is more like it! 

we're having an open house tomorrow, just like everyone else here. i invited all the malaysians that i've come across with-- and i didn't even budget how many people and whether there would be enough food or not. so shams and phin came up with the idea that they would cook maggi goreng if the food finishes up; which i agree not to interfere. last time i did, the vegetables were overcooked so it became like a mash/puree instead :P

takbir at broomhouse tonight. i bet its going to be melancholic.

this space has been neglected; mainly because i think (almost) everyone i have on my lj is on my facebook. it's redundant to write that i'm back in edinburgh when my facebook statuses indicated how gloomy the weather was on the first day of semester. maybe i should write about other stuff. like nothing related to my daily life; or at least i'll be vague about it since i panicked at the thought of family members reading this. ho yes.

i had to sort through three months worth of mails, specifically notices and bills. i was scared shitless when i saw a serious warning letter from the city council that we owed them tax worth over a thousand over quid. crazy! but students get exempted from that so phew!

three days living in this house and its been lonely at nights. housemate hits the sack pretty early so i'm all alone in the living room with the music full blast. and i kind of miss living in the halls because of two reasons; free heating and the ability to get to class on time even when i wake up five minutes before!

think there's something wrong with my grammar but my eyelids feels kinda heavy. i should sleep, before the bed gets cold.

 i'm still alive. but my laptop isn't. it's costing me a bomb just to change the fan! 
i want to write about projek kalsom but its going to take a while.
i've been going out every day ever since before fasting month; now i'm just tired. 
its exhilirating to meet new people but i'm a bit reluctant to go because cash is running low and i think the remaining days i have before flying back to edinburgh should be spent with my parents.

for the past few days, at least one baby died every day because of swine flu; its heartbreaking. the pandemic is getting rather serious. good to know that people at the office are taking precautions like spraying anti-bacterial at all door knobs, separating the meeting room for external clients and wearing masks. they're even thinking of installing the tempreture scanner thingamajig outside the office entrance. sometimes its amusing to watch the colleagues sanitizing their hands and neatly tying the masks on. its like they're getting ready to operate someone instead of going for a meeting with some clients.

tomorrow marks my last day here! seven weeks flew by so quickly. goodbyes shouldn't be a problem comparitively after the eight months internship at mercer (they're going to be so happy if they're reading this :P)

peace!

i'm getting tired of being in a concrete jungle or stuck in a traffic with annoying, non-melodic music that's always on repeat every 30 minutes. and with the huge sale going on, its ironic that i haven't spend a single cent on clothes. yet!

so five of us headed to chiling waterfall for a retreat. chillin' at chiling falls heheh :P simply put, it was awesome! blame my short-term memory loss, because i've never seen a waterfall higher than 15 feet up close.

we left subang around 7am to avoid the crowd since the waterfall is about an hour drive away plus another hour of trekking in the jungle. but we trekked an extra half hour because we got lost and them 'monkeys' were too busy singing and making monkey sounds, no joke.

weather was nice; it rained a little in the morning so it wasn't scorching hot. the sound of the stream was calming, the water was crystal clear. also thanks to the slippery rocks; i lost my balance a couple of times, and discovered a few black and blues on my knees and butt. the one little mood spoiler was when the big groups arrived and the spot was getting a little too crowded. so, its best to go anywhere (even shopping malls) early!


the rest will be up on facebook. kthxbye!

anyone realized at lunchtime today it was 12:34:56 on the 7/08/09? :D

next week marks my last week as an intern. finally i get my holiday! yea don't ask me again why i'm doing an internship during my three months break. things at the office isn't all that bad. with everything having to be 'syariah-compliant', it has its benefits after all. i might have low tolerance for typical malays who have no sense of urgency at almost everything other than gossiping, but i get along really well with the people in the actuarial department. and everyone received their increments and bonuses when i was around so i consider myself lucky to get free awesome lunches! owh and that once-in-a-blue-moon dinner treat from the chief actuary. work wise; the technicality of actuarial science is quite straightforward. i've learned plenty :) and i might see this people again, seeing as the company is one of the subsidiaries of my sponsors. hohoh!


i'm a little pissed off that my camera won't be back in my hands for another two, maybe three weeks later. time nak pakai camera, time tu la camera takde!! but the week's been nothing but dull; looking forward to a great weekend :)

for the past couple of days i have been staring at the computer screen for more than seven hours. by the end of the day my body gets all hyper for unexplainable reasons but my eyes want to be shut tight away from the evening sun light (ceh that rhymes :P)

and i was given the 'privilege' to assign gender to policyholders. because the IC numbers are not included in the data, it has to be decided based on their names. now, its easy if the malays have 'bin' or 'binti' and the indians have 'a/p' or 'a/l' in their names, but there's no way to tell the person's gender if he/she is chinese. caught myself laughing at a couple of names like "chin shave ming" and "pansy chan". i have a few guy friends who called each other pansy but apparently pansy also means a cultivated viola with flowers in rich colors. so which one is it? ahahahhahha!

i miss the guitar after having the chance to play a friend's accoustic at F's barbeque. seached for my guitar in the cupboard only to find the third string broken and the rest rusty, so i'll change all the strings tomorrow. my G9 fell last week, and it hit the floor hard. now the common dial's tight and the display is a bit distorted. i decided to stop ogling at the new olympus PEN and sent it for repair instead earlier today. my laptop heats up pretty fast so that needs to be send for servicing as well...there goes a month of my allowance. the list goes on but i'll stop from typing myself to sleep.

on a totally different note, this week has been...(for the lack of a better word) nice :)

this is my current subscription on youtube. his attempt at talking in british accent is too amusing!

jason mraz is so geeky in his own weird way; i love it la. im easily attracted to musicians who puts the right amount of hilarity in their songs :) some artists now days are crap. i refuse to call them musicians. to me, songs with lyrics that mostly consists of, for example "one two three four, uno dos tres quatro, i know you want me, you know i want you" do not deserve to be aired on radio for more than ten times a day. peace.

saturday was physically tiring! went jogging in the morning with dad. came back to see sab and fie outside, so we decided to walk to sri melur for breakfast. i wouldn't say the jog was a waste; but to compensate for the calories burned :P

speaking of burned, i can't recall who came up with the idea but we decided to go rock climbing. a little bit of spontaneity and fun wouldn't hurt. and the marshall that belayed us has "burn" for a nickname. didn't really bother to asked why because we had too much fun mocking his nickname. so he got back at us by making us by letting go of the belay rope and held it back just in time when we were hanging a couple of feet above the ground!

and after dinner, i tagged along with sab to hang out with her friends. even that was tiring because i couldn't stop laughing while looking at 24-year olds act like monkeys.

maybe i take back that part when i said a little bit of fun wouldn't hurt. because my arms are really sore right now; all i want to do is lie on the comfy bed. but then weekends are the only time i can/should meet up with people; compensates all the fun i missed out during the weekdays.

damn i kinda miss winter!

enjoy the rest of the weekend people :D